Hello my Love,

I can't believe that is has been a month since you passed away. Honestly, I can't believe that I have survived this long without you.

I constantly miss your touch, laughter, comfort. I look for you in all things and everywhere I go. Sometimes, I think I hear you in words that other people speak, in music and in silence. I look for your response throughout the day.

You always apologized for your perception of me taking care of you while you were sick.  "Our promise before GOD was in sickness and in health, til death do us part" I always told you that this was the easy part, the hard part was going to be living without you!

Everyday there is so much difficulties, trials, yet beauty. Life is bittersweet. For moments of loveliness, I wonder why you can't be here. In moments of hardship, I wonder why you can't be here. Life for me was so much easier with you here. You provided the humor and comfort that only "You" can do. Memories that only we can share.

You probably, already know this Tom, but with eveything I set out to do, I think of you. I will always, love you!!!!

Until we meet again;
Your wife

The day that I stood behind your hospital bed and held your hand for the last time, I remember saying to you everything that my heart knew to say. I remember the tears rolling down my face and not knowing that would be the last day I would be able to see you in the flesh. You were more to me than you could ever imagine. You were my first date, you were the first male role model, you were a provider, you were one of my heroes, you were my strength, you were my smile when days were dark, and you were even my peace. Dad you were more to me than I ever got the chance to tell you. You stayed even after you raised your own and took on the lives of three others. You were criticized and some even walked out of your life for the sacrifices you made for us but yet and all you stayed. You were the backbone that my mother needed and you made sure that when you went on to Heaven that she was well taken care of. You tried to hold on for her just to see that she was alright. Dad I want you to know today that she is gaining strength more and more daily, she has peace and your spirit is alive in well on Dockside. There will never be another YOU! When God created you in your mother's womb He broke the mold. He knitted you to be a humble man who continued to show and demonstrate love at all time, who provided, who brought joy and who no matter what loved unconditionally. I miss you more than I could sit and write, more than my tears could fall. I see you in my dreams. Everywhere I go there are memories of you. I miss your warm embrace, I miss our conversations, I miss your kisses, I miss you Dad! You are no longer suffering and knowing that brings me peace that surpasses all understanding.

I knew that looking back on the tears would make me laugh but, I never knew that looking back on the laughs would bring tears. Because I love and miss you, I continue to hear your voice and the moments we have shared. Hearing your voice is the closest thing to touching you. When I begin to cry I look up to the sky and remember, that you are a star; I might not be able to see you in the flesh but I know that you are always here with me. Your presence is still here Dad your spirit is here with me and daily I know that your strength pushes me to continue on. I am learning to smile through my tears. Dad if I could get one more tight hug from you. I know that you are in Heaven rejoicing and that one day we will be with one another again. I love, miss and honor you!

I have learned to smile through my tears. You will never know how much I love and loved you. You were one in a million. I have learned that weeping may endure for a night but joy comes in the morning light. The morning that I meet you again I know that joy will be present. I love, miss and honor you Dad! Thanks for being here with us still.

I can’t believe this day has actually arrived

The day that I’ll replay over and over in my mind

The day that you and I would run out of time

Lord, give me the strength not to cry

I wasn’t ready for the moment you’d make the choice to leave

Though I promised myself that by your side I would be

But it’s hard to be strong when I know that you’re gone but my eyes can’t believe what they see

Lord, give me the strength not to cry

There’s one thing I’m sure of it’s that God knows best and He has called you home with great cause

You were His angel in the spirit and our soldier in the flesh

Now you can rest in Heaven where you belong

I have faith in the Lord and His promises for us

And I am grateful for all of the years

I know you’ll be showered with unconditional love

For these reasons I’ll smile through my tears

Missing You!